Oh yeah. I guess I ordered that this week after my coworker talked me into it. I wasn't going to buy it until I raised the money for it, but she suggested that I start on it, and get the money for it later. Oh, I am so easily persuaded. I will work on these when I have down time. I didn't buy the book because I'm too cheap so I will be learning from doing questions and reading the answers when I get them wrong.
Today marks a week after I have asked God to help me with contentment while waiting on God. I had a wonderfully motivated Monday, a less motivated but great Tuesday, a Backtrack Wednesday, a pretty motivated Thursday, and a pretty peaceful Friday.
I discovered a song by Chris Tomlin today which I can't buy on iTunes yet:
I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies
Is always by my side
The One who reigns forever He is a friend of mine The God of angel armies is always by my side
I also read the book, "Fearless" by Max Lucado this evening, which I have been wanting to read for a long time. I looked through my Amazon Wishlist, and searched for every book I had on my local library's electronic database. It wasn't available at my library, but I requested them and I picked them all up. My next book I will start reading tonight is "Get out of that pit" by Beth Moore. I wanted to get Breaking Free but that wasn't available at any of the libraries. I even picked up 5 Christian CD's. I didn't use to like going to the library to borrow books since I'm germaphobic, but I'm allowing myself to touch the books this time around...
On Wednesday I had a fallback day, and then instead of working out like I did on Thursday, B and I went to eat at a hole in the wall restaurant inside of a Mexican grocery store. It was delish, and our total came to a little under $20, and I left a $20 in the tip jar, and bought a $.99 avocado. Then we randomly found a Bloomberry and shared a soft serve covered in goodies. I decided sometimes you can steal your own joy by being so hard on yourself about not wasting money. That was my live and let live moment of the week.
The best things in life are free and you can't buy them! Today I'm thankful for my precious boyfriend.
He tells me he loves me every day
He always puts my needs above his, because he is selfless
He always wants hugs and back rubs, and tells me he could hug me forever and ever
He tells me I'm beautiful every day
He always opens the car door for me
He cleans my house even if I'm not home
He thinks of all these precious things to do for me without me asking
He does cute things like gets me a bouquet of roses and sets it in a vase after cleaning my entire house
He renovated my house with me like it's his own
He's building me a patio
He made my entire kitchen, installed cabinets, appliances
He brought home a farm door and told me that he asked to keep it so he can re-purpose it and make me a desk.
He helps to cook food
He washes dishes
He helps me with anything heavy
He is a man of good character with a really sharp sense of right and wrong
He is godly and goes to God in prayer and goes to the Bible for wisdom
He is a good, loyal friend to the few friends that he has
He massages my feet and my arches when they hurt
When I have PMS pity fits, he melts them with a sweet kiss on my forehead
He's so kind to me even when I don't deserve it, which is the sweetest part of it all
He treats me like a queen and I don't know where he gets all these ideas of how to be the most precious boyfriend. I always tell him he came trained.
He gets really geeked out about Lord of the Rings/Star Wars/The Hobbit
I don't have to feel like I'm speaking to a zombie when he's thinking about sports. He isn't sports obsessed.
He goes to my house when I'm not there and makes my bed for me!! On soo many occasions.
He's working 10 hour days overnight this week in construction. He didn't want to be on unemployment so he took a temporary hourly job doing something unrelated. God doesn't make any mistakes, and surely he will use everything.
He pursued me even when I wouldn't date him.
He always sends me flowers.
One day after I got home from class, he had been waiting for me at my house. He asked if I was hungry and after I said I was, he pulled out two bowls of salad for us, and he cut out the shape of a star out of an apple slice and had it sitting in the middle of my salad.
One time I came home from work and he was at my house painstakingly making me ravioli from scratch. It took him three and a half hours. He shaped all the ridges with a fork too.
I honestly don't know how I got so lucky. He didn't fit any of my traits on my dumb "boyfriend list." So go ahead, make your lists, but your real man will not fit that list, and that's a good thing. Maybe it's because my dad said he has been praying every day for my spouse to be a godly Christian man since the day I was born. It's too bad my dad won't warm up to him, even though the guy he's asked God for has already been in my life for years. Sometimes families can be really awkward, and I have one high up on the awkward list. I think with each generation of a Christian home, you build a stronger family tree with the kinks worked out every generation. I am really hopeful for the kind of relationship Ben and I can share with our children!
I love him more and more and we've been together for over 5 years
Even if my parents won't be excited for my marriage, we will be, and that's all that matters.
